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Apr. 15th, 2014

The Book of Hare

aš, aš / words unfinished, unfound

My poem "Her Sun-patterned Eye" is in Strange Horizons!

It belongs to a wider series of poems I'm writing about ancient/prehistoric archaeological finds, which includes "Bowl" and "Thousands of Years Ago, I Made This String Skirt" in Stone Telling and "Sister" in Through the Gate. I'm fascinated by people very distant in time, by people whose stories are rarely told and by how the past is written about: the metaphor of a palimpsest is useful here, the past visible between the lines of the future, and I'd like what's visible to be a truer look at the past than what we get in most popular discourse.

When I read about the bones of a c.2900 BCE woman found at Shahr-e Sukhteh, 6 feet tall with a prosthetic eye covered in gold, carved with a sun-pattern, I wanted to write about her. What an eye! What a story she must have had! One artist on tumblr drew her, which I love. Here she is, as we know her:

Shahr-e Sūkhté

Bones. Is writing for a find of bones and grave goods truly history, or historiography? I started writing a narrative for her, a world she saw through her gilt eye. I stopped. The problem of filling in the gaps, of fictionalising, is one that historians (especially of the ancient world) face, and though I can embrace writing story in fiction or poetry, I apparently can't do it for long without stopping to question it. "Her Sun-patterned Eye" is me questioning it: the opening up of possibility, the narrowing down again to truth, to bones. Remarkable bones, a surely remarkable woman. I hope this poem means more people are aware of her.

Apr. 4th, 2014

The Book of Hare

Verse Kraken launch!

Last night I went to the launch of issue 2 of Verse Kraken, a zine edited by Claire Trévien and Tori Truslow. The new issue will be online soon; at the launch, the contributors present read their work - a really enjoyable mix of poetic, experimental pieces - and the editors sold out the super limited print edition. It's stuck into old copies of The Handbook of the British Astronomical Association, in places a palimpsestical collage: my poem, "Three Palimpsests on Ganymede", is on a page called Lunar Occulations. Look:


Two more glimpses: Alex Boyd's "St Kilda (The False Land)" and the back, listing items published in earlier editions of the handbook, including "Pleiades, The" and "Stars, The Brightests and Nearest".



My favourite piece at the launch was Hel Gurney's "The Book Remembers", an audio palimpsest of Anglo-Saxon voice and women's stories. I also loved James Coghill's "Sunt Stellae XIII: Three Surrealist Translations". Very short pieces lend themselves well to a reading event: there's plenty of variety, and ample time between and after the readings to actually talk to people. (I'm not such a fan of reading events that are just the readings.)

An excellent, tentacular night!

Jan. 16th, 2014

vomiting foxes

dark to one spark and I have your heart

A joy: The Literary Omnivore reviews Heiresses of Russ 2013: The Year’s Best Lesbian Speculative Fiction — which reprinted my “Feed Me the Bones of Our Saints” — and says:

“Feed Me the Bones of Our Saints” is as burning as Russ’ own anger.

I’ll have that in gold.

I also sold the audio rights for it to a podcast (no contract yet, so no name), so it’ll be listenable in the near future. It works well aloud — it had such a strong voice as I wrote it — so I look forward to this.

Originally published at Alex Dally MacFarlane. You can comment here or there.

Dec. 31st, 2013

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Two big things happened this year:



I spent almost 9 months of the year working on my MA in Ancient History, for which I got a Distinction. I learned a lot about the Ancient Near-East, about textual traditions of Alexander III of Macedon, I learned a little bit of Sumerian, I read up on queer theory to write an essay about personal reception of Psáppho that I want to adapt for online consumption, I wrote about Neo-Assyrian elite women’s role in the textile industry and got a 77 (a good mark in the UK system), I developed my research interests into the textual traditions of Alexander a lot further – into narrative maps and marginalised subversions – and realised my inter-disciplinary interests are going to make my future academic path very complicated. I still want to take that path.



The release of my debut anthology ALIENS: RECENT ENCOUNTERS, which was listed on io9′s Best Science Fiction and Fantasy Books of 2013. I’m really proud of it and I love its table of contents (which can be seen here). I’m happy that others agree: Lavie Tidhar said of it recently that it’s “a really strong, diverse list of authors and stories. And I love what she said recently: ‘Editing cannot be a passive act.’ It’s so true!” I continue to believe that very strongly.

I’m really excited about following it up in 2014 with THE MAMMOTH BOOK OF SF STORIES BY WOMEN. I’m working on the table of contents at the moment – it’s going to be amazing.

With my own short stories, I had a good year.

I had a story reprinted in a Year’s Best for the first time: “Feed Me the Bones of Our Saints” in Heiresses of Russ 2013: The Year’s Best Lesbian Speculative Fiction, edited by Steve Berman & Tenea D Johnson. The Publishers Weekly review of the anthology described my story as possessing a “stark ferocity”. The same story was translated into Bulgarian by Petar Toushkov and published in Сборище на трубадури. It can be read here. It also came in third place in the Strange Horizons readers’ poll for Best Story. It remains one of my favourite stories that I’ve ever written, so I’m pleased it got more readers in 2013.

Three new stories appeared online:

“Found”, about non-binary gender, spice trade and the deteriorating habitability of asteroids in another solar system, was in Clarkesworld Magazine. A reading group at NASA read the story, with an interest in the questions raised about asteroid habitation challenges and problems in our solar system. NASA. N A S A. A friend who works on the Cassini mission said very lovely things about the story. I remain awed that my science fiction has, in a small way, touched the people who work on the science I so admire.

“Singing like a Hundred Dug-up Bones”, about singing and memory on an island inspired by the Orkneys, was in Beneath Ceaseless Skies. Lois Tilton called it “profoundly misandristic”. I remain LOL.

“Thin Slats of Metal, Painted”, about bird-people trapped on a shop’s shutters, was in Crossed Genres‘ Boundaries issue.

Five new stories appeared in print:

I published two Tuvicen stories, set in a far-future solar system among a cultural group of lower-tech people on a terraformed planet. (Incidentally, they’re set about 200 to 300 years after the events of “Found”). “Unwritten in Green” was in Futuredaze: An Anthology of YA Science Fiction, edited by Hannah Strom-Martin & Erin Underwood. “Under Falna’s Mask” was in The Other Half of the Sky, edited by Athena Andreadis & Kay Holt. I particularly enjoyed starting to develop the culture’s non-binary gender in “Under Falna’s Mask”, something I talked a bit about here and looked at in my poem “Tadi”, published this year in Strange Horizons, and will develop further in a planned novelette about Tadi and gender in a non-performative culture.

“Out They Come”, a fox story (vomiting up foxes! revenge!), was in Shimmer‘s Issue 17.

“Selected Sources for the Babylonian Plague of the Dead (572-571 BCE)”, another fox story (zombies! women corresponding and solving the zombie problem!) inspired by an Akkadian tablet about a fox falling into a well, was in Zombies: Shambling Through the Ages, edited by Steve Berman.

“Gerayis (or Gedayis)”, a wikipedia article about Tomyris’ grand-daughter, was in Missing Links and Secret Histories, edited by L Timmel Duchamp.

I had some new poems published too:

“Tadi” in Strange Horizons.

“Always Packing” in Through the Gate.

“The Bone Woman” in Flying Higher: An Anthology of Superhero Poetry, edited by Shira Lipkin & Michael D Thomas.

I also participated in an Exquisite Corpse with KJ Bishop, Sofia Samatar and Katie Lavers.

None of the poems published this year belong to the ongoing project of poetry about ancient and prehistoric archaeological finds, but I’ll have new poems in that project in Stone Telling, Strange Horizons and Mythic Delirium in 2014.

I’ll have new stories in Strange Horizons (a queer historical story that’s very important to me), Beneath Ceaseless Skies (a woman general in a desert, outdoing her world’s Alexander) and Gigantic Worlds, edited by Lincoln Michel, Nadxieli Nieto & Michael Barron (taxidermied foxes IN SPAAACE), as well as a reprint in new zine Lackington’s. News on more stories is hopefully to come.

I’m pleased with 2013. I hope to do even more (on the SFF front) in 2014.

Originally published at Alex Dally MacFarlane. You can comment here or there.

Dec. 12th, 2013

vomiting foxes

10 Books That Influenced Me

There’s a fun meme on Facebook at the moment: list the 10 books that have most influenced you, the 10 that first come to mind not the list of 10 you might carefully craft to show the world. I’ve variously seen it as the books that specifically influenced you as a writer, or more generally influenced you as a person. My list is a mixture of both approaches.

10 Books That Influenced Me

1. Enid Blyton – The Famous Five

The whole series, not just the first book. It was my first(?) introduction to the idea that a girl could want people to think she’s a boy, which had a huge impact on me in a wide variety of ways. I’ll summarise it as: I am called Alex, not Alexandra, because of George.

2. Lylat Wars (for the Nintendo 64)

It’s not a book, but rules are for breaking. I can’t talk about influences on me as a writer or a person without mentioning this game! (Called Starfox 64 in non-European territories.) It’s what started me writing, before I ever saw the word “fanfiction” – I discovered the internet a year or two later and was delighted to find other people writing stories about Starfox. It’s key to my love of science fiction. It’s also one of the fox-related narratives I adored as a child, which has had obvious consequences for my fiction and poetry.

Then, in my teens, I started to lose interest in fantasy or science fiction. I’d go to that section in the bookstore and be utterly bored by everything I noticed, which was dominated by things like Robert Jordan and Terry Goodkind and other names. The backs of their books bored me so much. (I never even liked Tolkien! That kind of fantasy has never been my idea of fun, and that’s all I was seeing.)

Around 2006, I stumbled across some interesting writers.

3. Andreas Eschbach – The Carpet Makers
4. KJ Bishop – The Etched City
5. Catherynne M Valente – Yume no Hon
6. China Miéville – The Scar
7. Nalo Hopkinson – Midnight Robber

Thanks to them, I started writing fantasy and science fiction again. It could be weird, beautiful, thought-provoking; it could be about things beyond the Tolkien-style fantasies or Star Wars.

I also expanded my limited literary reading into work that ignores the literary/SFF boundary that a lot of people are fond of, that stands with its feet in many genres. Of these books, the most memorable I’ve read remains the following, but there are others I could name.

8. Milorad Pavić – Dictionary of the Khazars

Aside from Anne McCaffrey, I’ve read very little older science fiction and fantasy, which included Le Guin until fairly recently.

9. Ursula K Le Guin – The Wild Girls
10. Ursula K Le Guin – Always Coming Home

The Wild Girls is, of course, quite a recent work of hers, but it prompted me to read more. It is such a perfect, beautiful, angry, cutting story. Meanwhile, Always Coming Home is the construction of a huge body of cultural output from a group of people in a post-apocalyptic near-future: poetry, plays, prose, histories. It’s affected what I want to do with the Tuvicen stories and poems I’m gradually assembling.

Originally published at Alex Dally MacFarlane. You can comment here or there.

Dec. 9th, 2013

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Directed by an email, I logged into student records late last week to find the following:


A sequence of happy gifs would not do it justice. I am happy beyond gifs. I worked very hard and, after seeing the preliminary mark for my dissertation – a merit – I feared I would not get a distinction. My dissertation is indeed a merit (a good one), but all three of my coursework modules are distinctions. COURSEWORK VICTOR.

I got an average of 76 for Alexander’s Afterlife, which makes me want to see the essay-by-essay breakdown. (Fellow UK students will know why that’s quite good.) I got a 70 for S&M – no, not that S&M, calm down, it stands for Sources & Methods – which means my personal reception of Psáppho essay must have got quite a good distinction, or that the one I wrote in two days and finished at 4am on the extended deadline was not as terrible as I thought at 4am. Or both. (I never had the courage to look at the preliminary mark for that one. I am not a good academic writer at speed, but I am perhaps not a terrible one.) I don’t have an average for the Ancient Near East module yet because it was done at UCL, not KCL, but my lowest preliminary mark was 68 and my highest 77 (for the essay on elite Neo-Assyrian women’s roles in the textile industry, whee!), so it’s going to be around 73 or so?

I did well.

I will raise every glass of Champagne/sparkling wine over the holiday period to this distinction.

Originally published at Alex Dally MacFarlane. You can comment here or there.

Dec. 2nd, 2013


Sale of "Because I Prayed This Word"

I am so pleased to say that my story "Because I Prayed This Word" has sold to Strange Horizons, to be published in early 2014.

"Because I Prayed This Word" takes its title from Anne Carson's translation of Psáppho's fragment 22. The word is: I want. It is about (reception of) Psáppho and much more. I wanted to write about some texts I read while working on my MA, for an essay about personal reception of Psáppho and for personal interest. There is so much literature about love between women in history! Try to define that love, try to determine if genitals ever touched, and you completely miss the point. So much love! I'll write a longer post about its sources (with bibliography) when the story is out, but for now: so happy.

Another reason to be happy is that it will appear for free online: more accessible. At the amazing "Better History = Better Fantasy: Writing Outside the Binary" panel I ran at Nine Worlds, panellist Hel Gurney talked about the importance of making queer history accessible, when so much of it is locked away in journals and expensive books - or un-researched. (Like Hel, I really need to write up thoughts from that panel!) I hope that "Because I Prayed This Word" introduces people to literatures and women they might not otherwise have known.

Nov. 29th, 2013

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Diversity in SFF Magazines

This evening on Twitter there was a lengthy discussion about diversity in SFF magazines, the SFWA raise of the minimum qualifying payment to 6c/word, percentages of diversity, editorial practice and more! The people involved included Sabrina Vourvoulias, Silvia Moreno-Garcia, Sean Wallace and me. I assembled a storify of it because it got rather long and a lot of people wanted to be able to read it.

This is a relevant time for me to link to a post I wrote about editing Aliens: Recent Encounters, where I said the following:

This cannot be a passive act. An editor cannot sit at their desk and say “Oh, I hope I get lots of diverse stories!” and wait for them to appear. Not all authors see calls for submissions, not all authors think their stories are appropriate or good enough, not all authors are sure the editor is interested in their kind of work. (Some editors aren’t interested in true diversity, despite statements to the contrary.) …the only way to get a diverse set of stories in an anthology is to have a large, diverse pool of authors and stories to sift through, and the only way to get that is to work.

I do not think the 6c/word rate is going to change the diversity situation in SFF magazines. I think the situation will continue as it has been: slowly improving. I think it is important to pay diverse writers as much as possible. I think the key issue is – as it has been – editorial choices.

Originally published at Alex Dally MacFarlane. You can comment here or there.

Nov. 26th, 2013

vomiting foxes

there’s a room where the light won’t find you

I got bored and downloaded Instagram. It’s really fun! There are so many filters and I find (you may disagree) that they give low quality tablet photography a certain charm. So far I’ve taken photos of (1) the stack of contributor copies I received in 2013 (2) the view from my window this evening, when the sky stained the estuary water pink at the shore (3) amazing fox paperclips I bought in Brighton during WFC (4) reaching 40,000 words of edited still-titleless YA novel. Another 10,000 words remain to be achieved in the next 4 days, which will not mark the end of editing (the novel is about 60,000 words) but a significant milestone. I’d like it to be done in the near future so I can shift to other projects. I’d like to give it a title. I need to go through the Turkmen women’s folksongs again for something a little less cumbersome than “Selin That Has Grown In The Desert”, the name of the story from which this novel grew.





Originally published at Alex Dally MacFarlane. You can comment here or there.

Nov. 17th, 2013

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WFC2013 and Harassment

Twitter was alive before World Fantasy Convention 2013 with disappointment, unhappy amusement and anger at the emails sent by the convention committee to attendees, which can best be categorised as patronising and thoughtless, summarising badly thought-out policies: £75 for a replacement badge (they were not made of gold or the feathers of a mythical mountain bird), £5 for a Kaffeeklatsch to pay for the biscuits (a whole packet of nice M&S biscuits is not even that much), a very minimal statement about harassment. The latter of these is, obviously, a lot less absurd and a lot more worrying, although the classism inherent in the first two is not to be overlooked. Post-convention refunds for the Kaffeeklatsches are all well and good, but that refund was not adequately advertised before the convention, so many people did not bother signing up (and some authors opted out on principle – not even they knew the refund was forthcoming). PS: I am not voting for your convention book that was so pointlessly heavy that I didn’t bring it home. (Yes, in their latest email, they asked for award nominations/votes for their book. Really now.)

I want to talk specifically about the harassment part of WFC2013′s failures, because they’ve sent out a post-convention email and it is appalling.

Here is the relevant quote in full:

“Regrettably, we learned of one small harassment incident that occurred on the Saturday night when an extremely drunken fan made a nuisance of himself in the hotel Lobby. Unfortunately, he was not reported to either of the professional Security guards who were on duty at the time or any member of the con committee. As a result, by the time we had found out about the incident and ascertained the details, the individual concerned (who was not attending the Awards Banquet) had apparently already left the convention. The person affected did not wish to pursue the matter with either the hotel or the police and, for legal reasons, we cannot publicly identify the individual responsible. However, after full consultation with the Hilton management and our Security team, we have passed the name of the nuisance-maker on to the organisers of next year’s World Fantasy Convention, who will decide on any appropriate action to take.”

Let’s take that to pieces.

“one small harassment incident”

I am not happy to see any harassment described as “small”, as it makes it sound like it is not a big deal. The only person who can determine whether it is/isn’t a big deal is the person harassed. How hard is it to write “a harassment incident”.

“an extremely drunken fan made a nuisance of himself in the hotel Lobby”

1. Why is his drunkenness relevant? Many people got drunk at WFC2013, despite the price of drinks in the bar, and the vast majority did not harass anyone. Drunkenness is a behaviour, not a force of nature, not ever a reason – an excuse – for harassment or any other harmful behaviour. The only reason it is brought up in discussions of harassment is to in some way explain – ie: excuse – events.

2. The word “harassment” has been dropped in favour of “nuisance”. Someone making a nuisance of themselves while drunk is someone, I don’t know, singing harmless songs loudly in the corridor: annoying, but not a huge deal. Harassment is never a “nuisance”, it is harassment. Call it harassment. Always.

“Unfortunately, he was not reported to either of the professional Security guards who were on duty at the time or any member of the con committee.”

1. I am not the only person at WFC2013 who didn’t even notice that there were security staff in the lobby. I saw volunteers during the daytime, providing very helpful guidance through the clusterfuck of a badly signposted hotel, but I never noted security staff. If I had been harassed, how would I have known to go to security?

2. More importantly, someone who has been harassed should not be obliged to report their harassment immediately. Their number one priority is probably going to be their safety, which probably entails getting out of there a.s.a.p. Whatever their personal priority is, that is their priority and they should not be shamed for doing it.

3. Someone who has been harassed should be given support if they choose to report, whenever that is. Note the “if” and the “when”. It can take time to decide to report, because reporting is stressful: it involves being blamed for what happened; being told the harasser was drunk and made a nuisance of himself, nothing more. It involves recounting the incident multiple times. Many people do not report harassment and they should not ever be shamed for this. If it takes time for someone to decide to report, they should not ever be shamed for this.

It is not unfortunate that someone did not report their harassment immediately. It is unfortunate that they were harassed.

It is unfortunate that this email from WFC2013 – hopefully unintentionally – acts as if not reporting immediately is something they did wrong. Intent, however, has little relation with consequence. The WFC2013 email is upsetting and unsupportive.

“we have passed the name of the nuisance-maker”

Fuck off.

The words you’re looking for are “the harasser”.

We then come to the issue of the “one” in “one small harassment incident”, as I heard on twitter shortly after WFC2013 that there had been three incidents of harassment. To quote @LR_Lam on twitter today:

More important information comes from Cheryl Morgan, who has written a lengthy post about the running of World Fantasy Conventions, including specific reporting from WFC2013. The comments are worth reading for even more information. In it Cheryl reports that the WFC2013 twitter account posted on Sunday Correction: it was posted on the display boards in the lobby:

“It’s Sunday. No one has lost their badge and no one has been harassed.”

Not only is this infantile passive aggressive bullshit, but it’s factually wrong. People reported harassment on Saturday night.

Even if no one had reported by Sunday morning, it’s awful to say that, because what about anyone harassed and still considering reporting? That is not a lot of time to make that decision. What about anyone harassed who never reports? Their experience should not be erased by assuming it doesn’t exist.

Blithe updates and dismissive official emails indicate little to no compassion for people who have been harassed at WFC2013. That is exactly the kind of environment in which people do not report harassment – and harassers know they are safe to harass. They know that harassment is not a serious issue for the people running the con. They know that the reports that are made will be minimised to a single report in the official email. Whatever the intent of the person who wrote that display board update and the person(s) who wrote that email, the consequences are this: WFC2013 was more safe for harassers than people who were harassed. This is not a proud legacy. This is not a safe legacy. This continues after WFC2013 finished, as anyone harassed at WFC2013 who reads that email – people who reported, people who did not – will know who is safe and who is not.

I want an apology from WFC2013 and a statement that all future World Fantasy Conventions will be run with the safety of attendees as a major priority. (Also: ACCESSIBILITY.) Look to Readercon as an example. It’s not fucking difficult, the only reason not to do it is that you don’t give a shit.

Originally published at Alex Dally MacFarlane. You can comment here or there.

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